Girlfriend by definition...

So, it's Halloween Eve and i'm doing a post to help my self not be so mad at "me". I have had girlfriends in the past and i can truely say that i am in love with only one. You. I have this problem you see, i get the word "Girlfriend" stuck in my head. I label you as that. This is the biggest problem i have as a guy. Girlfriend consists of two words, girl and friend. Girl by definition is a born female from birth to adulthood. Friend by definition is one attached to another by affection or esteem. Girlfriend by definition is a frequent or regular female companion in a romantic or sexual relationship. The girlfriend definition gets stuck in my head and i forget "friend". Friend is the basis of this compound word, but i lose it. I want to be all lovey dovey with you. I want to be intimate with you. The stuff i do with my friends i do with you, but i stopped. I'm sorry. I feel horrible for it.

I also know that when two people engage in conversation that it's not one-sided where one has input and the other listens. I don't input anymore. I'm also sorry for this. I don't realize what i do and it's never intentional. Blah... I'm going to see you tomorrow and we're having this dispute. Also, this blog is not helping me... -sigh-

"Love you too..."

Please stay here for just tonight...

So, i'm listening to this song by Chase Coy from Dear Juliet called "If the moon fell down" and i'm sad/happy. It's one of those "cutesy" songs, but I want to talk to you, honest to GOD i do... I just always seem busy to you. That's weird of me to give off that vibe every afternoon. I got really sad this evening trying to contact you and yerned to talk to you. I broke into tears listening to this song. In a way, it made me miss you... Like i always do. But this, was the kind of sadness that brought me tears while doing ANYTHING. play video games, eating, sitting, lying down, even breathing. I couldn't take it. I just wanted to talk to you for the rest of the day...

"If The Moon Fell Down" - Chase Coy

Everytime I see your smile
it makes my heart beat fast
And though it's much too soon to tell
I'm hoping this will last
'Cause I just always wanna have you
Right here by my side
The futures near but never certain
At least stay here for just tonight
I must have done something right
To deserve you in my life
I must have done something right along the way
I just can't get you off my mind and why would I even try?
Even when I close my eyes I dream about you all the time
And even if the moon fell down tonight,
There'd be nothing to worry about to worry about at all,
because you make the whole world shine
As long as you're here everything will be alright