Frustration

i've been kind of upset lately. Between school, friends, family, and the other extra kinds of things i do, it's putting so much anger within me. Anger, what a distasteful word. It sounds like someone ripping Happiness from your soul and replacing it with such feelings that make you want to explode. It just bothers me constantly. On the verge of letting out emotions, i still bottle them up. Holding such things can be either Good or Bad. It hurts me a lot; to the point where i want to rip my heart out and hold it up in the air. not good. "To be truely happy, live a life of virtuity." philosophers say that... Things tend to annoy me more easily, and people get on my nerves for being who they are. I can't do something about it becuase it's just their well-being. Although, i keep thinking everyday. About what? Many things. One of the things i think about on a daily basis is this world. What has it become? Who still has FAITH? Why do we act the way we do? Why is their HATRED in the world? etc. etc. etc. (Blahblahblah) No one can fulfill my thirst for such answers to these questions, except one. He not only has the Mental and Physical capability, but he can also makes things better. If you just take the time to talk to him, things become better. Little by little.
I always tell people i miss them, which i do, but it's getting repetative and monotonous that i'm tired of it. I'm Acting so selfish by telling others, "You never talk to me anymore." or "Why haven't you called?" it hurts me to just think of those things. Selfishness is not the way to go, it's to be self-righteous. So, i'm apologizing to those who i tell such things to. I'm losing contact with so many friends, it's a bummer. Think, Think, and Think s'more. that's all i'm doing right now, and i'm in my own world of contemplation, thinking, over-viewing, comparison, etc. My day? It was below Average.